Patience

Patience; defined as the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without acting on annoyance or anger in a negative way.

Yeah, ok?!?  My mom always says, that when God was passing out patience, she couldn't really stand to wait around too long. I have to say that the same goes for me.  I don't have a patient bone in my body.  However, today makes day 18 in the hospital, and slowly but surely, I am forced to face my affliction.  I am here with my thoughts and emotions, and have no choice but to deal with them head on at this point.  As trying as its been- dealing with the unknowns, I'm doing ok I think.  What choice do I have? This experience is not going to break me- that I am sure of.  I will learn from this situation. There is always room for growth, afterall.

The beginning

So, here goes- my first blog post.  I wanted the title to be meaningful and special.  Prato is italian for meadow, and brillante, meaning bright.  Bright meadow is the meaning of my grandmothers name...which is Shirley.  She was italian, and there will always be a bright spot in my heart for her, although its been hard without her here.  It has been almost two years since she left us, and not a day goes by that I don't think of her- especially as I sit here in the hospital.  I've been here almost 3 weeks now.  I'm tryng to make the best of it, especially since I have no idea how long I will be here. I have nothing but time on my hands these days, and have lots of time to think about everything. I'm not sure if thats a good thing, or a bad thing.